I was
speaking with someone yesterday, talking about how quick some people are to
make themselves powerless. My health, is out of my hands. My relational circumstance,
is out of my hands. My financial circumstance, is out of my hands...blah, blah,
blah.
And the
response I received was "No one wants to be that accountable."
Wow.
And it
resonated within me as a precise truth.
How
accountable are we willing to be in our own lives?
Are we
willing to take full responsibility for every circumstance that presents itself
to us in our lives?
So often
people accept the false belief that it simply "is out of my hands." How
convenient, right?
If we choose
to believe that our circumstances are not something we have the power to change,
then we simply choose to remain the victim, perhaps under the guise of "I
will wait idly by for God to save me." Or we choose to believe God wanted
this circumstance for us so we must endure further suffering. Or, we couldn't
possibly change these conditions, it is impossible.
What if— we
are accountable, it is our fault and God has availed "Himself" to be a
co-creator with us in any life circumstance we choose?
Uh Oh! Now THAT would be a lot of accountability; which is precisely why many choose not to
embrace this premise. All things are possible, hmmm, where have I heard that
before? To catapult your life to
fulfillment, it starts by believing anything is possible. Not just believing at
the surface, "Sure, well I guess so." It is a belief that must be an undeniable conviction. A KNOWING. An undisputable fact...and if you don't reach
that level of thought, you will not achieve the outcome you desire, and therefore you will have the convenience of saying, see?
And then slump back down into helplessness...it is out of my hands.
Granted,
maybe at first we didn't know what we were signing up for. Maybe at first it
wasn't our fault in that we were just moving lovingly along, moving forward,
and seeing where a relationship or situation was headed. However, when we repeatedly
ignore the reality of those circumstances, we remain "asleep," choosing to endure intolerable
suffering and excusing it away under some delusional premise such as "They
are doing the best they can." "They
don't mean to hurt me." "They want to treat me better." "There
is nothing I can do about it." "It is completely out of my hands."
Or any plethora of other lies we choose to tell ourselves. It is in those
moments we must acknowledge that the responsibility has shifted to us. It is
our fault. It is our fault because we are announcing that we are simply
helpless to remedy the issues in our lives; and that is a lie.
I believe
that our accountability spans across every key aspect:
Spiritual, Financial, Emotional, Physical and
Mental.
And in any of
these areas that you choose to believe you are not accountable, then prepare to
spiral down in your life. Your helplessness will give credence to the false
beliefs you are choosing to accept. And when you do that, be prepared to live the
life of a sufferer...when in reality, no matter what has transpired, you have always
had the power to change it. Instead, we
get too tired, too lazy, too afraid, or just too comfortable "living in the horseradish"
as Susan Jeffers refers to it. We get comfortable in the muck, and that is a
choice.
The
alternative, would be to accept our accountability for the conditions of our
lives, and that feels too damn hard.
This is not
to say that we should not offer compassion to ourselves for what we have
allowed and sustained. It is not to say we should beat ourselves down for our
failures. Contrary to that, we should drench ourselves in love and
understanding. We need to realize if we truly loved and honored ourselves deeply,
we would have taken action sooner...yet, all we can do now, is love ourselves
through it.
But if we
remain with the belief that we are powerless, then our lives will continue in the manner that they always have. Our self-destructive patterns will repeat themselves. We are never truly powerless.
We just sometimes have forgotten all that is available within us to allow for a
completely abundant life, a joyful life.
As I discuss
in my book Me and My Shadow, which depicts
my journey from Fear and Control to Love and Freedom...
I needed to realize I deserved better than the circumstances of my life. I needed to realize I was the creator of the horseradish I was standing in, or more aptly put, sitting in with burning, tearing eyes. I was the problem, not because of my behavior, but because
I was
willing to accept the behavior of my abusers.
I
didn’t fully understand lies, deception, manipulation, or any form of evil. Since I perceived they weren’t in my makeup,
I assumed they weren’t in anyone else’s either. I never even looked, not even
for a moment, at what was happening to me and being inflicted on me. I was
blind to the deception and manipulation because I could only see the good. I
would think I saw or felt red flags occasionally. I would experience little
inner promptings warning me, but time after time I would choose to ignore these
signs. I didn’t understand they were warning me that I was incongruent with my
soul; the knowing of what was in my highest, greatest good was always present.
Instead, at some unconscious level, I decided if I looked, or perhaps feared if
I looked at the message of the red flag, my whole world would come crashing
down. During that time I was asleep I never stopped to see that my personal
world was already a train wreck; a train wreck that could have been salvaged at
any time. It was then, and always will be, our choice.
There is no
area of our lives that it is true we are helpless. We only allow ourselves to
believe we are:
Spiritually:
Do you really want to accept that God decides for you? Or do you want to decide God (however you
define it) grants you the power to create any life you want? That as promised,
all things are possible, if you choose to harness the power that is available
to each and every one of us.
Financially: Do you really want to go through life with a scarcity mentality or a
belief that if you have financial security or abundance that makes you bad? Or
the belief that there isn't enough to go around or that you will never have
plenty because somehow you are unworthy? How can you receive abundance of
anything if you don't believe you deserve it?
Emotionally: Do you really want to numb yourself to the emotions that exist? If you aren't willing to feel and experience
fully the pain, then you also are not willing to fully feel and experience the
joy. One cannot choose to simply feel happy emotions and ignore the rest of
them. Numb is numb, whatever you refuse to feel, numbs you and leads to a repressed
pile of emotions inside, just waiting to erupt...anxiety begins.
Physically: Do you really want to decide you are not responsible for your
health? If not you, than who? Do you really want to believe we are punished
for mistakes and "cursed" with illness...or do you want to be
accountable here as well, and know
your body is capable of healing itself? Your
body is a living organism...and just like a plant will die if you curse it and
mistreat it...your body needs your love. It needs YOU to believe it is alive.
Mentally: This one at many levels directs all the others. We all have heard
countless expressions that reflect the power of our mind to create our lives.
Whether you believe it or not, does not change this fact. Your thoughts have
true energetic power, so if you don't like the conditions of your life, start
here, change your mind. Become conscious of your thoughts...and choose ones that will serve you rather than
harm you.
Choose to no
longer be that harsh abusive parent to yourself. Be kind and loving to you.
In my book I
take you through each and every one of these aspects, enveloping the wholeness
that is yours. We walk together through these
concepts as they are dissected and put back together to remind you what you
already at some level know:
You are the powerful creator of your life. If you don't
like what you see, begin to draw another image.
Don't be a
victim. It is a choice. Move from Fear
and Control to Love and Freedom.
Copyright © 2014 by Diana Iannarone
If this strikes a chord with you, consider buying my book:
Me and My Shadow
Move from Fear and Control to Love and Freedom.